Phew! I tell you what, I am NERVOUS to come right out and say this, but I will be competing in a physique competition on June 23, 2018!
Never in a million years did I think this was something that I wanted to do, or was even curious about, and to be honest, I didn’t even know that this was CALLED a physique competition until a couple of months ago! But about 8 months ago, a seed was planted. I was at a health and fitness conference in July of 2017, and there was a physique competition (I think I called it a bikini contest at the time), that a friend and I decided to watch. I went as more of a laugh, thinking that I would be disgusted, repelled, uncomfortable and maybe some other negative emotions, watching girls walk across the stage in bikinis. But you know what? I came away INSPIRED.
We arrived late and missed the actual competition, but there were still women up on stage, and we saw them in the lobby afterward, and I remember thinking, hey, they look like regular girls. And it wasn’t long before I was thinking, actually, they don’t look THAT different from ME. Throughout the rest of the trip, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. And when I got home I started researching actual physique competitions, to figure out what exactly this was, and how you might go about competing. I reached out to several other women who had competed in physique competitions and got their feedback. And then I thought about it some more.
And I realized that I REALLY wanted to do this. Why? I want to compete in a physique competition because for me it would be the ultimate challenge, and I LOVE a good challenge! This is something so far beyond my comfort zone, it was never even in the realm of my consciousness. I want to do this because on top of being a challenge, I know there is some major adversity I will have to overcome to not just compete, but to compete to WIN. Because I also know that I am not going to half-ass this. I want to do the best I can, so that I know, even if I don’t win, I gave it my best shot. Let me be clear: I have no desire to walk across a stage in a bikini, just to say that I did it. I have EVERY desire to take every difficult step of this journey and see where I end up. I’m doing this as an experiment to see how far I can go, and how far I can push my body, and how much I can challenge myself.
I have no idea what I’m doing. I know I have a lot to learn along the way. But I am going to do this! So if you want to follow along on how I train, eat, strive, fail, and pick myself back up through this whole process, with most likely some serious laughter along the way, then come on!
There are now 172 days left until the competition and I plan to document as much as I can of this process along the way with this blog.